Oh no. . .

Yesterday, Joshua was watching something on TV and asked who a character on the show was. I said, "that's her mommy." His eyes widened as he gently touched my arm and said, "This is my mommy. . ." I said, "That's right. . .and when your baby sister comes out, I'm going to be her mommy too. I am going to be Joshua's mommy and Caylee's mommy." I smiled and rubbed his back. I then continued my explaination wanting him to really hear what I was saying, "So, that means that you are going to share your mommy with Caylee." He cocked his head to the side and stared off into the distance in deep concentration. As I tell you this next part, remember, JJ just weaned a few months ago and I do take baths with him and change in front of him. I was wearing a nursing bra that I bought when I was first nursing Joshua so that I could decide if I would need a new one this time. You know, size and comfort and durability kind of thing. It has a snap and it came undone as I was talking to him. So, I lifted up my shirt and fixed it. I decided that this was a good time to remind him again that the baby would have Nah all the time since he would be witnessing this in the coming months. After I said this to him, his eyes got even wider, he smacked his lips as his mouth watered and he said, "And I can share!!" it made me giggle and I explained to him again that Nah is for babies and that he's a big boy and doesn't need it anymore. I gave him a hug and he changed the subject. If Joshua does get curious when I'm nursing Caylee, I have decided that it's okay for him to taste it in a cup. Judge me if you want to, but that's what my mom did to me. Mom, if you're reading this, this is a memory that has stuck in my head. I was four 1/2 years old when my brother Bradley was born. Mom was nursing him and I asked what she was doing. I must have looked really curious because she explained it and then asked if I wanted to taste it in a cup. Now, the difference between me and joshua is I didn't remember what nursing was, JJ will. But, I quickly refused and that was the end of my curiosity. I'm not sure if JJ will respond the way I did, but I do know that breastmilk for newborns has a different taste and consistancy than milk for almost 2 year olds (the age Joshua was when he quit nursing). So, my hope is that he just won't like it.